In need of a hug today, I received none.
Yesterday, however, I delighted in many
hugs and touches, all of them maternal.
My mother—age eighty-five, frail, sightless,
hard of hearing, often quite confused—
spent the day with me from early
morning until past suppertime.
My father had gone away,
on business, for the day.
I hugged Mom each time I got her up from bed or
her easy chair. She holds my forearm when I guide
her anywhere. When shes on the toilet, dozing,
losing track of time, I rub her back and press my
cheek to hers and ask, Hey, Ma, almost done?
I think Im still urinating.
When she washes her hands with liquid soap under
warm running water at my bathroom sink, I steady
her with my right hand, my thumb and fingers splayed
across her lower back. With my left hand I monitor
the water temperature. Mom evidently cant tell which
hands are hers or mine, but that is fine. For nor can I
unless I look—Mom washes and rinses my
left hand along with the two of hers.
That was yesterday.
In need of hand-holding
or a hug today,
I received
no one.
And
no one
received
a hand from me.
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